Chapter 1:
As I opened my eyes looking at the sealing , having jumbled up uncertainties like an infinite paradox about the lameness of my life. Got off the bed and started to get ready. HUH the same old day, oh damn I am getting late. Rushed to the port oh God i bet i will be fired from the job, today is the day of the inauguration of the port, and i was assigned the duty to manage all the deliveries . As i reached the port ahmed my supervisor standing in front of the office with raging eyes ready to smash me, without any second thought . I stood in front of him ready to take the scolding. well I got what I deserved but my thoughts were different at that time thinking is it really my fault why is he nagging so much oh gosh he is retarded, I am retarded this life is retarded. After the harsh lecture from ahmed I went straight to my office sat on the chair and started to question myself and my life. Why am I alone do a person like me really should exist, what is the meaning of my existence. There is a popular saying that everything that exist in the world has a meaning , so according to this what is the meaning of my life. Am i also useful does my life also have a meaning. A man with no family, no friends, no one who can be affectionate to him. HUH thinking about family, mother left when I was 8 years old, father and sister died in an accident, as I was left with nothing but memories and regrets of the loved once. Somehow managed my own.
Having all these thoughts making me go crazy I heard my manager ahmed calling me Amir, Amir. I rushed to the main office. Other employees were also there sitting on a round table and i was also ordered to sit. The discussion was about another port which was running low of staff for the work. This port was a remote island where the ships would usually stop for loading and unloading , a small harbor. But no one on the table was willing to go to such a remote place because of many reasons. Some of them refused because of their families and some for the uniqueness well you can say horror filled tales. But i was the only one with nothing at my end so everyone was looking at me. But someone had to go so the whole table decided to vote, as i expected all of the employees chose me as if they wanted to get rid of me. I knew that I never really had any social stable ground but this was a little heartbreaking. But thanks to my ignorance that heartbreak was healed. The manager ahmed was kind enough to ask of my opinion that weather i wanted to go to that place or not but i took it as a chance for a new beginning.
All the employees thanked me with their fake smiles which made me question their sorry existence. In my eyes they were nothing but animal driven by the harshness of the world. And turned into such good actors. As i went back to my house the manager sent me all the details via letter with my departure date 1812-12-12. Which was the very next day so I started to get my stuff ready. When the moon hit the highest point in the sky i laid down on the bed trying to sleep. But like always lots of uncertainties jumbled up and put the sleep of my eyes on fire. What happened today was the main heading of all the thoughts i began to think about that again cursing my company mates. And thinking even though they lie the deceive each other on daily basis do they deserve to live, why are they so happy with life, why do they have loves one why not me have I done something wrong oh God why, why is my fate so messed up have I done something to angry you why is it me only please tell me. While thinking that a sudden gust of wind came and I fell to sleep. Waking up the next day I took my stuff and went to the port ready to deport. As I was about to leave all the employees came to say their goodbye but in my mind they came to laugh at me and my misery. I also acted as they wanted me too and showed everyone a warm smile with a goodbye handshake.
It took me 8 days to reach the port by ship. When I reached that deserted harbor a dirty looking boy greeted me and took my stuff with him. Well he was my guide for the day. I was assigned as the supervisor to a handsome number of men. I never greeted them or had a brief discussion with them as I knew that we will not become friends I will be their boss and they will be my laborers chained to my orders, dumb enough not being able to do simple tasks.
Because of this attitude I never get to knew them and they never bothered to ask why. My apartment at the harbor was made of wood which for no reason irritated me. But the harbor was not such a bad place and only 20% of the island was populated the other was jungle. I don't know why but I had a curiosity of exploring that island but never got time from my 12 hours of duty . Several days passed with this boredom routine. But for some reason I got so focused on the thought of exploring the island . That one day I decided on exploring the island. So as usual I woke up and went to duty after which I came back at when the moon was just appearing at the sky. I waited till midnight so that everyone would be sleeping. At that night the moon was full and the night looked like a shining princess wearing a green dress because of the thick forest. I started walking in a random direction without any knowledge of where I was headed.
While walking I entered the jungle but after a few minutes of stroll I got lost. Even though I lost my way I tried to be remain focused. The idea came to me that if I walk towards the sound of the deep ocean which can be heard from anywhere of the island I will be able to reach the beach which will lead me back to the harbor so I started walking towards the noise of the deep ocean and reached the beach. The place I was standing was really far from the harbor and it was the highest point of the island because of which I was able to clearly see the harbor. While standing at that place I started to look around because of the height I was able to see as far as my eyes could look which was really beautiful the ocean was raging ,the cold and sharp wind whistling through the ears and the plants waving through the wind ,the sound of the small animals screeching and the combination of all these sounds sounded like unrest symphony. But for some reason it was not much comforting .While I was looking at all of this my eyes met a strange thing, unintentionally my feet started walking towards it as they had a life of their own. When I got closer, that thing came into a better view which was a huge castle. The castle was deserted and horrifying. I tried to build up my courage to look around but in the light of the full moon the castle seemed to emit darkness which was really frightening. So I buried the idea of exploring the castle. The castle exited on the peak of a small mountain with a small beach directly 30 feet under it closed by two huge rocks. The beach only had a single rout. So I thought to myself why not take a walk on the small beach. As I started to walk towards the beach I saw a palm tree and an old man sitting with his back rested with the tree looking at the moon.
Strangely the ocean at that side of the island was calm. The whole atmosphere was really calm and resting but because of the old man staring at the moon the thought that came to my mind was "GHOST RUN AMIR RUN". I got so frightened that I ran back to my apartment as fast as I could. Locked the door and jumped into the bed and started to think what the heck was that.
Then like usual laughed at my uselessness that I could have asked that old man what he was doing there alone, was he lost, yup that’s right he might have lost the way and ended up there. Oh I could have helped him and then again what if he don’t need my help what if he is there by his own will. Ok that’s decided then tomorrow I will go there again check if he is still there.
As I opened my eyes looking at the sealing , having jumbled up uncertainties like an infinite paradox about the lameness of my life. Got off the bed and started to get ready. HUH the same old day, oh damn I am getting late. Rushed to the port oh God i bet i will be fired from the job, today is the day of the inauguration of the port, and i was assigned the duty to manage all the deliveries . As i reached the port ahmed my supervisor standing in front of the office with raging eyes ready to smash me, without any second thought . I stood in front of him ready to take the scolding. well I got what I deserved but my thoughts were different at that time thinking is it really my fault why is he nagging so much oh gosh he is retarded, I am retarded this life is retarded. After the harsh lecture from ahmed I went straight to my office sat on the chair and started to question myself and my life. Why am I alone do a person like me really should exist, what is the meaning of my existence. There is a popular saying that everything that exist in the world has a meaning , so according to this what is the meaning of my life. Am i also useful does my life also have a meaning. A man with no family, no friends, no one who can be affectionate to him. HUH thinking about family, mother left when I was 8 years old, father and sister died in an accident, as I was left with nothing but memories and regrets of the loved once. Somehow managed my own.
Having all these thoughts making me go crazy I heard my manager ahmed calling me Amir, Amir. I rushed to the main office. Other employees were also there sitting on a round table and i was also ordered to sit. The discussion was about another port which was running low of staff for the work. This port was a remote island where the ships would usually stop for loading and unloading , a small harbor. But no one on the table was willing to go to such a remote place because of many reasons. Some of them refused because of their families and some for the uniqueness well you can say horror filled tales. But i was the only one with nothing at my end so everyone was looking at me. But someone had to go so the whole table decided to vote, as i expected all of the employees chose me as if they wanted to get rid of me. I knew that I never really had any social stable ground but this was a little heartbreaking. But thanks to my ignorance that heartbreak was healed. The manager ahmed was kind enough to ask of my opinion that weather i wanted to go to that place or not but i took it as a chance for a new beginning.
All the employees thanked me with their fake smiles which made me question their sorry existence. In my eyes they were nothing but animal driven by the harshness of the world. And turned into such good actors. As i went back to my house the manager sent me all the details via letter with my departure date 1812-12-12. Which was the very next day so I started to get my stuff ready. When the moon hit the highest point in the sky i laid down on the bed trying to sleep. But like always lots of uncertainties jumbled up and put the sleep of my eyes on fire. What happened today was the main heading of all the thoughts i began to think about that again cursing my company mates. And thinking even though they lie the deceive each other on daily basis do they deserve to live, why are they so happy with life, why do they have loves one why not me have I done something wrong oh God why, why is my fate so messed up have I done something to angry you why is it me only please tell me. While thinking that a sudden gust of wind came and I fell to sleep. Waking up the next day I took my stuff and went to the port ready to deport. As I was about to leave all the employees came to say their goodbye but in my mind they came to laugh at me and my misery. I also acted as they wanted me too and showed everyone a warm smile with a goodbye handshake.
It took me 8 days to reach the port by ship. When I reached that deserted harbor a dirty looking boy greeted me and took my stuff with him. Well he was my guide for the day. I was assigned as the supervisor to a handsome number of men. I never greeted them or had a brief discussion with them as I knew that we will not become friends I will be their boss and they will be my laborers chained to my orders, dumb enough not being able to do simple tasks.
Because of this attitude I never get to knew them and they never bothered to ask why. My apartment at the harbor was made of wood which for no reason irritated me. But the harbor was not such a bad place and only 20% of the island was populated the other was jungle. I don't know why but I had a curiosity of exploring that island but never got time from my 12 hours of duty . Several days passed with this boredom routine. But for some reason I got so focused on the thought of exploring the island . That one day I decided on exploring the island. So as usual I woke up and went to duty after which I came back at when the moon was just appearing at the sky. I waited till midnight so that everyone would be sleeping. At that night the moon was full and the night looked like a shining princess wearing a green dress because of the thick forest. I started walking in a random direction without any knowledge of where I was headed.
While walking I entered the jungle but after a few minutes of stroll I got lost. Even though I lost my way I tried to be remain focused. The idea came to me that if I walk towards the sound of the deep ocean which can be heard from anywhere of the island I will be able to reach the beach which will lead me back to the harbor so I started walking towards the noise of the deep ocean and reached the beach. The place I was standing was really far from the harbor and it was the highest point of the island because of which I was able to clearly see the harbor. While standing at that place I started to look around because of the height I was able to see as far as my eyes could look which was really beautiful the ocean was raging ,the cold and sharp wind whistling through the ears and the plants waving through the wind ,the sound of the small animals screeching and the combination of all these sounds sounded like unrest symphony. But for some reason it was not much comforting .While I was looking at all of this my eyes met a strange thing, unintentionally my feet started walking towards it as they had a life of their own. When I got closer, that thing came into a better view which was a huge castle. The castle was deserted and horrifying. I tried to build up my courage to look around but in the light of the full moon the castle seemed to emit darkness which was really frightening. So I buried the idea of exploring the castle. The castle exited on the peak of a small mountain with a small beach directly 30 feet under it closed by two huge rocks. The beach only had a single rout. So I thought to myself why not take a walk on the small beach. As I started to walk towards the beach I saw a palm tree and an old man sitting with his back rested with the tree looking at the moon.
Strangely the ocean at that side of the island was calm. The whole atmosphere was really calm and resting but because of the old man staring at the moon the thought that came to my mind was "GHOST RUN AMIR RUN". I got so frightened that I ran back to my apartment as fast as I could. Locked the door and jumped into the bed and started to think what the heck was that.
Then like usual laughed at my uselessness that I could have asked that old man what he was doing there alone, was he lost, yup that’s right he might have lost the way and ended up there. Oh I could have helped him and then again what if he don’t need my help what if he is there by his own will. Ok that’s decided then tomorrow I will go there again check if he is still there.
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